I completely understand that deployments are stressful. Not just for the soldier but for the families left behind. Extra chores have to be picked up, errands done alone, temporarily being a single parent, and everything else in between. However, there is a limit to how much a person can take as things get dished out from the deployed spouse to the homefront spouse. Just because you had a crappy day that day, does not give you the right to contact your spouse and make them feel two inches tall for something they did not do. And when it becomes a daily occurance, how can you expect your spouse to give you what you want or need when you degrade them every chance you get? What happened to a marriage being a partnership? Just like every relationship, there are good things and there are bad. But there comes to a point when the bad days really start to take over and begin to cloud over the good times. You cannot ask someone to do something spacific for you if YOU cannot return the favor. Some soldiers have this thinking that they can treat their wife, kids, and anyone else in their life however they want to but everyone should bow down to that soldier. I hate to tell you, but it does not work that way. When soldiers deploy, there is a war fought at home during that time as well. The remaining spouse has to pick up a lot of work. My days run so into each other that I have times where I don't even know what day it is! I cannot be expected to work 24 hours a day, for days at a time. Eventually, my system is gonna shut down to catch up on the Z's I've lost.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
I am currently going to online schooling with Penn Foster for my associates degree for Veterinary Technician. I just checked my credits list and found that by the time I am done, I will have 77 credits! Unfortunetly with all the deployments, kids, and just life in general, I feel I have fallen behind in my school work. I am almost done with my first semester and I look forward to what I will be doing next. I have learned so much and refreshed on things I learned back in junior high and high school. I feel good about being in school again, learning new things, and doing something new with my life besides being a wife and a mother. Here soon, I will be taking my proctor exam. I am really nervous about it (like I am with all major tests) and my biggest fear is that I will fail. But time will tell when the day comes that I will be taking that big step in my life and seeing the finished results.
Why is it that every time a deployment begins, the accusations come along shortly afterwards!? Seriously! Do some people have nothing better to do with their lives? Is your life so shitty, that you gotta make shit up about others? On top of that, if you got something to say, have the fucking balls to come say it to my face. Instead of acting like a damn 12 year old, act like an adult, come to me about the situation, and let's talk. I certainly do not appreciate being accused of things that you "think" I have done. How can you tell me what I am doing when I did not even know I did it?? It all just does not make sense to me. Let me tell ya, the military life is not high school and certain people need to quit treating it like it is. Grow up and be an adult for once in your life!